I know that scenario does not put me in the running for mom
of year. I know I can handle those
situations much better, and sometimes I do.
However, that is not the point of me telling you that too familiar
scenario. Instead, it is to say that being a mom can be hard. It’s hard to
juggle. It’s hard to juggle what your kids need, what your friends need, what
your husband needs, and what you need.
Another area, I have not mastered is keeping my plants
alive. I do not have a green thumb. There is one small plant on our front porch
that has miraculously bloomed this spring. I don’t even know what kind of plant
it is. Anyhow, Grace watered it yesterday for the first time in over several months.
As she poured the water over the plant, it quickly spilled out the bottom of the
pot. The dirt couldn’t absorb the water
because it was so dry.
That’s how I feel sometimes. I am so dry that I can’t absorb
what I need to help me. I can phone a
friend and they may give me great advice, solutions, and even brainstorm with
me. And sometimes that is very much needed. But other times, I can only take
small dosages. I can’t handle a long
list of does and don’ts or hear what works for you and doesn’t work. Instead, I usually need a small drop of understanding.
A small drop of genuine care. A small drop of empathy. Then my ‘soil’ can begin to
soften up. It is then my hearts feels refreshed.
There are so many choices as a mom. Where do I send them to
school? What kind of diapers should I buy? Schedule or no schedule? Which
soccer class do I sign them up for? I mean, you could drive yourself
crazy. And although I really do want answers
for all these questions (which I know there are no right answers for these
questions), what my heart really needs is to be heard. I love when I share all
my jobbled up thoughts or questions with a friend or my husband, and they patiently listen.
They hear me. Really hear me. They aren’t in a rush. I see the care in their
eyes. They feel with me. That is sometimes all I need.
As I learn about what I need, I love to water my kids hearts in the same way. How can I "water" their unique hearts? Small drops....hugs, putting down my phone to look them in the eye when they talk, getting on the floor to build a choo choo train track (again!), laugh at their not so funny chokes, apologize when I haven't loved them well, give them boundaries and enforce them, be silly with them, smile, really 'see' them. Watering a plant is simple (although I rarely remember to do it). Watering a friend or child's heart is more challenging. But what sacred ground it is.
As I learn about what I need, I love to water my kids hearts in the same way. How can I "water" their unique hearts? Small drops....hugs, putting down my phone to look them in the eye when they talk, getting on the floor to build a choo choo train track (again!), laugh at their not so funny chokes, apologize when I haven't loved them well, give them boundaries and enforce them, be silly with them, smile, really 'see' them. Watering a plant is simple (although I rarely remember to do it). Watering a friend or child's heart is more challenging. But what sacred ground it is.